I have to face reality. I’ve gained 10lbs. Since I reached Lifetime membership at Weight Watchers, I have not taken the program seriously. I’ve become overconfident and convinced that I can keep my weight off by eating whatever I want and going to the gym occasionally. It’s just not a reality. I need help. I need the help of the WW program, I need the support of all the WW members and I need to realize, again, that this is a lifestyle change. It is forever. If want to stay at this healthy weight for the rest of my life, I need to be fully committed.
I feel like I’ve failed. It’s really horrible. I lay in bed at night stressing about everything I have consumed in the day. I always say to myself I am going to start over tomorrow and get back on track. But it just ends up being the same old routine. Repeat, repeat.
I finally went for my May weigh in at WW on Tuesday. The news wasn’t good. I knew it wasn’t going to be. As I said above, I have gained 10lbs since March 1. HOW could I do this??!! It’s so stupid and ridiculous. It really is like a slap in the face. So Wednesday morning, I got right back on track and I am tracking my every bite in my points journal. Journaling alone is essential, no matter how much I hate it. It needs to be a priority. I need to make sure I set myself accountable for what I put in my mouth. There is a saying that I love: “What you eat in private, you wear in public.” I truly believe this. I can feel it in my clothes. Some are tight and uncomfortable and I have even put some away because they don’t fit anymore period.
Anyway, here I am complaining and whining when I know who is to blame. ME. No one else is responsible for what I’ve done with myself.
So here I am committing myself to getting right back on track. I will keep you updated on my progress. I am even thinking about setting up a new blog for my weight loss. Wish me the best?! Please? I need all the help I can get!
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