I applied for two web designer jobs on Friday. Although, I noticed that the posting for one of them has disappeared off of Kijiji, so it may not be available any more. None the less, I actually took the leap and applied for the jobs. It feels good. Sure, it makes me nervous, but it’s a step in the right direction.
Please don’t misunderstand me, I love my current job. I have wonderful co-workers and great customers. I make pretty great money and the hours are wonderful. If I want a vacation, I book it off and that’s it. I have complete flexibility. Since I have been with the company for almost 12 years, I also have a fair bit of seniority when it comes to shifts. I have pretty much the same shifts that I have been working for years and there is very little chance they will be taken away from me. However, I do not want to be a server at a restaurant my entire life. I can’t imagine being 75 and still having to work because I don’t have a proper pension. That scares the hell out of me. Yes, I am putting money away every pay cheque, but I still fear that won’t be enough.
I went to school last spring to take web design. I learned a lot and it reassured me that web designer is something I would really like to consider as a career. So why haven’t I applied for more web designer jobs? The honest answer is that I am scared. I’m terrified to leave what I have come to know and love for the past decade. I am so comfortable with the way my life is right now. Change can be a scary thing and if I get another job, there will be so many changes.
Well I guess I will see how it goes with these two applications and if, in a couple weeks, I haven’t heard anything, I will look for more jobs to apply for. I think it might finally be time to move on.
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