I’ve been feeling down in the dumps recently and I know exactly why. I know that I sound like a broken record. I go on and on about my weight issues and I swear to change, but alas, it doesn’t happen. I keep asking myself how I kept myself so dedicated for the year and a half that I lost all my weight. Why can’t I go back to being motivated like that again?! I remember only losing 1.9lbs in one week and was disappointed because it was such a small amount. I would LOVE to lose that much now. Ugh. Life sucks. Food sucks. Exercise sucks. RAWR.
I haven’t made a home cooked meal since last Saturday. We have eaten out every day this week. Some days I even ate out for lunch and dinner. Sure, a couple of the meals included salads and pitas, but most included burgers, fries and ice cream. It’s not a good mix. I have gone to bed each night feeling so gross. I always tell myself that I will get up in the morning and exercise. But all I can think about when I wake up is food like pancakes, hashbrowns, bacon and grease. Then I think, hey, if I wait a little while to eat then it will be past 11am and I can go get McDonald’s cheeseburger and fries.
Somebody needs to save me from myself.
Maybe I really do need to go back to Weight Watchers meetings. That way I will have to weigh in with somebody besides myself each week. I would be embarrassed if the scale just went up and up each week. I might actually be good and stay some-what on plan. It really might be a good idea. I need to do something.
Wish me luck. I need it.
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