Posted on Monday January 21, 2013
I logged into myfitnesspal the other day and it congratulated me for having logged in for 40 days in a row. That’s fabulous, right?! Well it is not so simple. Yes, I have been logging in everyday, but it isn’t to actually use the app. I simply opened the app, glanced at my friend’s feeds and then close it. That was all I did for the day. It started again the next day. I have done no work at all. I haven’t been tracking what I have been eating. I haven’t been exercising, so there has been no need to log that into the app. How ridiculous that I get credit for logging in for 40 days in a row when I have probably gained weight in those 40 days. Shame on me.
Seeing that short little sentence congratulating me really made me rethink what I am doing. I said I would start eating healthy and exercising come the new year. Then I postponed it for when I got back from Las Vegas. So, what is my excuse now?! Nothing. Laziness.
After work the other day, I had 100% planned to go to the gym. I was driving in the right direction when I noticed I drove right past it. I was aware of it too. I just kind of said “I’m going to the gym, I’m going to the gym,” but then I drove right past it. To make it worse, I didn’t drive home, I drove to the Mcdonald’s drive through. Something is messed up about that. I had been planning to work out the entire day, but when it came down to the last second, I couldn’t do it. What a strange feeling.
I had a nice long talk with my mom, and as much as we don’t want to, we made the decision to start going back to weight watchers on Tuesdays. I am now 20lbs heavier than my goal weight and it feels awful. I worked so hard and I feel as if I am throwing it away. Why?! There is no excuse.
So I hope that I have the willpower again to say no and to exercise regularly. I love the endorphins I get after working out and my body is definitely craving them. The time has come and I will succeed.