Ever since having babies, I haven’t really blogged about just “me.” Although, babies and kids are now my entire life, I thought I’d write a post about something that is going on with just me. Sadly, when going over different topics in my head, everything I could say seems like I will be complaining. Ah well, I still feel like I need to get stuff out. So I am choosing the biggest change in my life right now.
For the past 2+ months, I’ve been feeling quite ill, on and off. I get nauseated quite often and have been having tummy/food processing issues. It occurs mostly at night and it’s been awful. I have been to the doctor twice already and both times have been told to take some probiotics to try to regulate my system. I have been on the probiotics for over a month and still no improvement. I feel okay for a few days and then crappy all over again. It’s a vicious cycle and I am really getting tired of feeling sick. Between Jadzia getting up 4-6 times per night and then feeling ill at night, my sleep is horrific. I am not feeling healthy or rested at all.
Of course I worry that something more serious is wrong with me. Oh you know, cancer and terminal illnesses go through my mind constantly and those thoughts are not helping me get better. They stress me out even more, which is also a bad thing. I am grasping at straws as to what is wrong with me. I’ve lost over 12lbs in the past 2 months (without trying to lose anything) and I’m at a loss for what could be wrong.
I’ve decided to try anything to feel better. What’s the harm, right?! So this week I was researching and thought that I would try going gluten free for a little while to see if that makes any difference. If it doesn’t, at least I will have ruled something out. I know a lot of people have stomach issues when it comes to gluten and maybe that’s my problem too. It would be weird for gluten to all of a sudden to start bugging me, but maybe it has something to do with being pregnant and my hormones. Things in a woman’s body change so much during pregnancy and post-pregnancy.
So I am learning now that there is gluten in almost everything I like to eat. I look in my fridge and freezer and all I can see is carbs and wheat! It’s in so many sauces as well. I am reading labels really carefully. As much as I want answers, I really don’t want to be gluten free for life. It will be a huge challenge to constantly be on the look out for gluten in everything I eat. Food allergies really do suck! However, if I do feel better after cutting out gluten, then it will be worth it because the past 2 months have been torture. Anyway, I am on day 3 of gluten free right now and haven’t noticed much of a difference yet. I am going to give it a good month (I hope) before I give up.
If the gluten thing doesn’t work out, I might try cutting out dairy for a bit and see if that works. Again, it would SUCK to have a food allergy, but worth it if I feel better.
Does anyone else consume a gluten free diet? Care to share any pointers, recipes, anything?! THANKS
Dear baby Jadzia,
How can it be possible that you are FOUR months old already?! I just cannot believe it. You are growing up so much. Your little personality is starting to shine through and you are truly becoming your own little person. I love you so much! I weighed you this morning and you came in at 11lbs 13oz! I can’t wait to find out your height at your next immunizations!
Oh you love to giggle whenever mommy tickles you or plays with your belly. It’s so adorable. I’ve even caught you giggling at your sister when she does silly things. I love how interactive you are becoming. You LOVE playing with toys. When you lay down on your play mat, you immediately grab for the rings and toys hanging from it.
Everything seems to go into your mouth these days…especially your hands and anyone’s fingers that are nearby. It’s funny, whenever anyone holds you, you can be seen bending to try to get ahold of any piece of fleshy finger to stuff into your mouth. You must be teething!! I took you to your first baby show and I bought you some teething rings. You love them so much. You can grab ahold of them and keep them in your mouth, but if you drop them, it’s a bit harder for you to pick them back up. They have great ridges that you can use to soothe your gums. The tricky part is keeping them out of your sister’s mouth!
You started taking naps in your crib this month. They went pretty well. You would sometimes cry when we first put you down, but went to sleep fairly quickly. After about a week of successful napping, your Daddy and I decided to move you into your crib full time for nights as well!! You have done wonderfully at sleeping in your own room. By wonderful, I mean we don’t have to move you into our room at any point in the night. Length of sleep is a different story altogether. You are still waking up 3-6 times a night. Every night is different. The longest stretch we had this month was 6.5 hours and that only happened once. You are usually up to eat every 2-3 hours. I am getting used to it, but I do wish you’d like to sleep for longer periods. I am sure it will come one day though.
The weather got a little nicer this month, so you have been getting to spend more and more time outside. I like to put you into the baby carrier and keep you snuggled nice and warm while exploring the outdoors. I think you are going to enjoy going for walks as the spring/summer months come along.
As with the past few months, you still do not like to take a bottle. You will eventually suck on it a tiny bit, but to be honest, the milk usually ends up dribbling out of your mouth and all over your clothes. I still haven’t left you for a long enough period to test when you get really hungry though. You hate soothers and will not suck on them. We honestly stopped trying to convince you to take one this month because it’s pointless. If we offer you a finger, you are all over it though haha.
You have started to like having baths! We’ve got you into a bit of a routine now that you get to bathe every other day. You no longer cry when you get into the bath and you are starting to kick your feet a tiny bit. Mostly you just try to eat the bubbles that are all over your hands. If we get you wrapped in a towel quick enough, you don’t cry anymore after the bath either! Yay.
You got your second cold this month. Your poor little nose was so runny and the sneezes came in threes. It was quite a bit harder for you to sleep. Thankfully you got over it pretty quick.
It’s amazing how much you can change and grow in one month. I look forward to what new and exiting thing comes next! I love you around the world infinite times!
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Three months old? How can that be possible baby girl?! The time has flown by so fast. You are officially out of the newborn category.
Well you are growing like a weed. I weighed you today and you weighed in at 11lbs 3oz. Such a good healthy growing girl. You are wearing 3 month outfits but I think you might be getting a bit too long for them! I’ll have to get out the bigger clothes soon. As much as I want you to grow up, I have trouble saying goodbye to my little baby. It gets easier as time goes by, but sometimes I just want it to slow down.
Bottles and soothers are still not your friend. In fact, they seem to be your enemy. Any progress you’ve made with them in the past few months seems to be gone. It’s as if you’ve regressed completely. I think your Grandma got you to take a suck or two on a bottle last week, but you sure hated it. You scream and cry anytime a soother or bottle goes into your mouth. You are a boob girl through and through. It’s tough for your Daddy because he wants so much to be able to calm and feed you. We’re going to keep trying though. Can’t give up and you will hopefully learn to love the ease of a bottle and maybe even the joy of a soother.
You had your first round of immunizations this month. You didn’t like the needles very much and you went all crying red tomato faced for a few minutes afterward. You recovered quickly though and luckily, you didn’t have any side effects.
Your little tear ducts started producing tears this month. So now when you cry, I have to see the tiny little droplets roll down your face. So sad to see your watery eyes.
One of the new things you do is lay on your playmat. It’s bright and colourful and it has a mirror on it. You lay there for quite awhile looking up at yourself in it. There are dangly toys on it too that I swear you like to bat with your hands. You can’t grasp them yet, but you’re definitely exploring your surroundings and feeling out what is around you.
You are still sleeping in our room, but you now sleep in your cradle instead of the bassinet and you seem to be doing pretty well. It was tentative at first because your Daddy and I realized that you had never slept on a flat surface. We panicked a little because we would like to move you to your crib soon and you need to be able to be flat in there. Currently, in the cradle, we have some rolled up receiving blankets on either side of you so that you are still somewhat nestled. We are hoping to be able to remove them soon. I know I said above that you are no longer classified as a newborn, but you sure still sleep and eat like one. Meaning you are up 2-5 times per night to eat, depending. We have had a couple 4 hour stretches but you most often go about 3 hours between feeds. It’s tough but I know it won’t last forever.
You’ve started to giggle and it’s so so so adorable. You love when anyone snuggles into your belly or neck and wiggles around. It’s like an instant mood booster because you always giggle. I am looking forward to some full out belly laughs soon.
You joined your Grandma and I for a little Oscars party this month. You spent most of the time sleeping, but it was fun to have our 3 generations together for a night. We left your sister at home with Daddy and so it was some nice one on one time with you!
You are a Mama’s girl 100%. You often don’t like to be out of my sight. It’s sad for other people because you cry for them, but it makes my heart warm and fuzzy. Still hoping you’ll warm up to other people soon though.
You are definitely more aware and have a lot more open awake times than the previous month. I can see you are itching to start playing and not miss out on what’s going on in the world.
I am looking forward to seeing you continue to grow and smile and giggle and everything.
LOVE YOU SO MUCH